In-Betweenness

So I'm sitting here thinking about a conversation my sister and I had yesterday, albiet briefly:

We simply checked in with each other to see how the world was revolving in each other's respective universe when she asked me if I'd found a new job yet.

Of course my answer was no but that I'd come across a couple of opportunities some friends had introduced me to and I'm getting more information about the application process. So I said something like:

"I'm between opportunities right now."

Now that may not seem like such a signifcant phraseology, but it then occurred to me that I'm in all sorts of in-betweenness. I'm in the middle of a bridge that starts in one place then leads to somewhere new, no matter how positive or negative. I'm in between work opportunities. I'm in between two books. I'm in between my 20's. I'm in between seeing myself as a teenager and as a woman. I'm smack dab in the middle of spiritual growth. I have this sort of double consciousness going on right now (and yes that's a nod to W.E.B. DuBois. Please check out Souls of Black Folks.)

The way I see it, I'm in preparation mode for something else. It's pretty easy to see how being "in between" can be a cause for negative thinking. I mean, at some point, it seems as if you aren't going anywhere. You could just be stagnant and waiting for the tide to bull you over just for the sake of movement.

Now don't get me wrong, I don't want to remain in this state. I actually do want to reach my goals and accomplish a few things before I reach the next state of in-betweenness, but I don't necessarily see this time as a bad thing.

In-betweenness isn't just a rest stop; it's preparation.